Wednesday, April 15, 2015

CHRISTIAN FICTION SCAVENGER HUNT: STOP # 4 (PURPLE TEAM)

Welcome to the Christian Fiction Scavenger Hunt! 

I am a part of TEAM PURPLE, and this is Stop #4.  If you get confused, you can go here for the basic rules and instructions.

If you’re just joining us, there are two loops—purple and pink—and they begin at Lisa Bergren’s site and Robin Hatcher’s site for stop #1 for either stream. If you complete either the pink loop or purple loop, you can enter for a Kindle paperwhite and the 17 autographed books from that loop. If you complete BOTH loops, you can enter forthe Grand Prize of a Kindle Fire HDX and ALL 34 autographed books.

The Hunt begins at NOON Mountain time on April 16 and ends at midnight Mountain on April 19, 2015, so you have a long weekend to complete all 34 stops and maximize your chances at all the amazing prizes!

BE SURE to keep track of the clues at the bottom of every post in the loop and the favorite number mentioned. You’ll need those clues to enter for the loop prize and every number mentioned in order to enter for the grand prize.

ALSO, please don’t use Internet Explorer to navigate through the loops. Some web sites won’t show up using IE. Please use Chrome or Firefox!

Without further ado, it’s my pleasure to introduce you to my guest for the Scavenger Hunt, Winnie Griggs. Winnie is a Southern girl--like me!--who writes about Small Towns, Big Hearts, and Amazing Grace! 



Here’s her professional bio:
Winnie Griggs is the award winning author of Historical (and occasionally Contemporary) romances that focus on Small Towns, Big Hearts, Amazing Grace. She enjoys cooking, browsing estate sales and solving puzzles. She is also a list maker, a lover of dragonflies and exotic teas and holds an advanced degree in the art of procrastination.

Here’s the summary of her latest book, Winning the Widow's Heart:

To help his dying sister, Nate Cooper once broke the law—and he's regretted it ever since. Now the ex-con turned saddler hopes for a new beginning in Turnabout, Texas. So when Nate saves a young widow's daughter from imminent harm, he's shocked to be called a hero. 

Single mom Verity Leggett leads a safe life, avoiding danger and excitement at all costs. But her daughter's rescuer Mr. Cooper seems like a perfectly responsible—and handsome—man she can rely on. But when his secrets come to light, will Verity be able to get over his past and see Nate for the caring man he's become? 
 

When an ex-con falls for a timid widow can he convince her he’s a changed man?




And here’s Winnie's EXCLUSIVE content, that you’ll only find in this hunt!
Winnie says:

"My upcoming May release, Second Chance Hero, is the sixth book in my Texas Grooms series.  I am already near completion on the seventh which will be released in December.  The books are connected through location—they take place in the fictional town of Turnabout, Texas—and the community of people who live there.





"As you might imagine, after seven books, it’s getting more and more difficult to keep up with all the details of the books that came before.  Three books back, I drew up a town map so I could keep up with where all the buildings and landmarks are so I don’t inadvertently move them around in subsequent books.  (It you want to get a look at it, you can find it at this link  http://www.winniegriggs.com/Turnabout.php)

"But just as important as keeping up with the physical town layout, I need to keep track of all the people who’ve earned their happily ever after in those earlier books.  After all, life goes on for them – they have children, participate in community events, continue with their careers – and this needs to be reflected as I write the new stories in the series.  I’ve tried to keep it all straight with spreadsheets, but I needed something more of the ‘at a glance’ variety.  So just yesterday I I created a chart of all the main characters and pertinent dates—birth, marriages, etc.  I haven’t made this one public yet, it’s still on a private web page, but if you’d like a sneak peek, here’s the link http://www.winniegriggs.com/Turnabout-People.php.

"I’m thinking that next I’m going to chart out the key secondary characters and maybe even pets that have been featured prominently.  What do you think – are there any of these sorts of charts that are of interest to readers?  If so, what other kind of info would you find interesting or helpful?"  

You can purchase Winnie's book, Second Chance Hero, at these retailers:  
Amazon   
Barnes and Noble   
CBD   

THE SCAVENGER HUNT SKINNY:

Thanks for stopping by on the hunt! Before you go, make sure you WRITE DOWN THESE CLUES:
Secret Word(s): the book 
Secret Number: 3, a number I chose because I was born on the 3rd.

Got ‘em down?? Great! Your next stop is # 5, Winnie Griggs’s site. Click on over there now. And if you get lost, a complete list of the loop with links can be found at our mother host, Lisa Bergren’s site

BUT BEFORE YOU GO!
I am giving away a paperback set of all 5 of my Medieval romances - The Healer's Apprentice, The Merchant's Daughter, The Fairest Beauty, The Captive Maiden, and The Princess Spy. All you have to do is sign up for my new newsletter. The sign-up is at the TOP RIGHT of this page, and then leave me a comment on this blog post saying you signed up. I will email you if you win. Thanks!



Friday, March 06, 2015

Huge Giveaway! Enter to win one of ten books!

Click on the picture above to enter to win one of TEN new releases, including The Huntress of Thornbeck Forest!

This Contest runs through March 27th, so make sure you get your name in as many times as you can to win one of the books!

Tuesday, March 03, 2015

The Huntress of Thornbeck Forest is coming!

Pre-Order Sale!
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A beautiful maiden who poaches to feed the poor. A handsome forester on a mission to catch her. Danger and love are about to unite in Thornbeck Forest.
The margrave owns the finest hunting grounds for miles around—and Odette Menkels spends her nights poaching his deer to feed the hungry orphans of Thornbeck. By day, Odette is a simple maiden who teaches children to read, but by night this young beauty has become the secret lifeline to the poorest of the poor.
For Jorgen Hartman, the margrave’s forester, tracking down a poacher is a duty he is all too willing to perform. Jorgen inherited his post from the man who raised him . . . a man who was murdered at the hands of a poacher.
When Jorgen and Odette meet at the Midsummer festival and share a connection during a dance, neither has any idea that they are already adversaries.
The one man she wants is bound by duty to capture her; the one woman he loves is his cunning target.

The Huntress of Thornbeck Forest e-book will be $4.99 until it releases on May 12th! So don't miss the pre-order sale!

Pre-Order from:


This will be my first book available in Audio
Also my first book available in hardcover!

Praying all my faithful readers will love this Swan Lake-Robin Hood mash-up, the first book in a new series! But don't worry, the old Hagenheim series will continue for just a bit longer. The next Hagenheim story is The Golden Braid, a Rapunzel retelling, and I think you will be pleasantly surprised to find out who the heroine is. But don't try to guess; it's supposed to be a surprise. ;-)

And Another New Release!

It's all Five of my Previously Published Fairy Tales, one complete e-book bundle, at one price.

So, there you are. My two new releases, a pre-order sale, and all the trimmings. :-) But I have just one more announcement, and that is that my website just got a sweet new overhaul! Check it out and see what you think. www.MelanieDickerson.com


Friday, August 29, 2014

Giveaway! THE PRINCESS SPY Advance Reader Copies are here!


I now have some advance copies of The Princess Spy and would like to give away a few. 



So if you'd like to get your hands on this book two months before it comes out officially on November 4th, then please leave a comment with your email address. And you can disguise your email address by spelling out "at" and "dot com" and putting in spaces, that sort of thing, just so I can reach you if you win. 

And I'd be super grateful if you read it and posted a review on Goodreads! 

So, depending on how many people comment, I will be giving away a few copies. Just let me know why you want it and I'll put you in the drawing! Thanks!!!


Addendum #2 
Thanks SO MUCH to everyone who commented! I love you all so much and wish I could give a copy of the book to every single person. But alas, it is impossible.
Winners of the drawing are Amelia, Stephani, K Heald, Meg Kramer, and tjpjw. I may have also contacted a few others about reviewing or getting an influencer copy. Please check your email inbox!

Tuesday, June 03, 2014

News, Updates, and a Sale!

Lots of exciting things have been happening with my books! 
First of all, my next book has a cover! And is already available for pre-order.

The Princess Spy releases on November 4th! But you can pre-order it

And in other news, I have recently signed two new contracts with Thomas Nelson Publishers! 
I will be starting a brand new series, a Medieval Romance series. The first book, The Huntress of Thornbeck Forest, will release in May of next year and is a retelling--a mash-up--of Swan Lake and Robin Hood. I'm quite excited about it! I will also be writing more YA books in the same vein as the ones that I have already been writing, so never fear! I will not leave you hanging! 


Here I am with my new editor, Becky Monds, while I sign my contracts with Thomas Nelson!



My new tea mug. :-)

And last but not least, The Captive Maiden is on sale for a limited time for $1.99! 


Thanks for keeping up with my books through this (poor, neglected) blog! God bless!

Thursday, February 13, 2014

99-cent Kindle Daily Deal!


Happy Valentine's Day! 

All four of my fairy tale retellings are only 99 cents as a special Valentine's Day Kindle Daily Deal on Amazon.com. Tell your friends! This offer is only for Friday, February 14th!

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Two Book Signings Coming Up!

I just wanted to try to get the word out about my two book signings coming up! I'll be at the Barnes & Noble at Bridge Street in Huntsville, Alabama tomorrow, Friday the 22nd, at 6 p.m. 

If you are unable to make that one, I'll be at the Monrovia Library, 254 Allen Drake Dr., Huntsville, on Tuesday, December 3rd at 6:30 p.m. 

So if you're in the area, please come out and support a local author and maybe pick up a few books to give as gifts. :-) 'Tis the Christmas, gift-giving season!

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

The Captive Maiden is Now Available!

If you have not checked facebook lately, you might not know that The Captive Maiden released yesterday! Yay! You can now turn your Nook or Kindle's wifi on and receive your pre-ordered copy. You didn't pre-order it? No problem! It is still only $5.12 for e-book, and only $5.99 for the paperback!


And if you haven't yet read The Merchant's Daughter or The Fairest Beauty, they are now only $1.99 but only for about a week! So get them now!


I don't know why, but The Healer's Apprentice is still $5.12, but that's still not bad. :-)

And if you have read any of these books, but especially The Captive Maiden, I would really appreciate it if you were to write a review and post it to Amazon, or any of the other sites like Goodreads and Chrisitanbook.com, etc. Thanks much!!!

Friday, November 15, 2013

Winner of the Ellie Sweet Giveaway

And the winner of her choice of Stephanie Morrill's Ellie Sweet series e-books is ....
Victoria Grace! Congratulations, Victoria! Please email me privately at melaniedickerson at knology dot net and let me know which of the Ellie Sweet books you would like.

Thanks so much to Stephanie Morrill for offering this giveaway!!! It was fun having you on my blog. :-) The Ellie Sweet books are already a huge hit with a lot of readers!

Monday, November 04, 2013

Stephanie Morrill's New Ellie Sweet Series! Win a book


Awesome Young Adult writer, Stephanie Morrill, has a wonderful new series out that is getting rave reviews! And she is giving away a copy to the Ellie Sweet book of the winner's choosing to one lucky commenter on my blog! Stephanie has a wonderful blog where she nurtures and encourages young writers, which I admire so much!

Here's a little bit about her new book:

For once, Ellie Sweet has it all together. Her hair now curls instead of fuzzes, she’s tamed the former bad-boy, Chase Cervantes (she has, right?), and her debut novel will hit shelves in less than a year. Even her ex-friends are leaving her alone. Well, except for Palmer Davis, but it can’t be helped that he works at her grandmother’s nursing home.

Life should feel perfect. And yet, it’s not that easy. Ellie’s editor loves her, but the rest of the publishing biz? Not so much. And they’re not shy about sharing their distrust over Ellie’s unlikely debut.

Ellie has always been able to escape reality in the pages of her novel, but with the stress of major edits and rocky relationships, her words dry up. In fiction, everything always comes together, but in real life, it seems to Ellie that hard work isn’t always enough, the people you love can’t always be trusted…and the dream-come-true of publishing her book could be the biggest mistake she’s made yet.

The first book in this series is The Revised Life of Ellie Sweet, and it is only 99 cents on your Kindle! Get it now and start reading this awesome series:



Stephanie Morrill lives in Overland Park, Kansas with her husband and two kids. Her only talents are reading, writing, and drinking coffee, so career options were somewhat limited. Fortunately she discovered a passion for young adult novels and has been writing them ever since.
Stephanie is the author of The Reinvention of Skylar Hoyt series, The Revised Life of Ellie Sweet, and the award-winning Go Teen Writers: How to Turn Your First Draft into a Published Book. She enjoys encouraging and teaching teen writers on her blog, www.GoTeenWriters.com. You can also find her online at www.StephanieMorrill.com

Social media links:

Twitter: @StephMorrill https://twitter.com/stephmorrill

Monday, October 14, 2013

My Fairy Tale Retellings are $1.99!

I wanted to use my (neglected) blog to let you know that my previously published books are $1.99 on Kindle right now and probably will also be $1.99 on Nook and other devices. It just sometimes takes a little while to change the prices.

Click on the cover to buy The Fairest Beauty for $1.99


And click on this cover to purchase The Merchant's Daughter, my Beauty and the Beast retelling:
The Merchant's Daughter

And click here to purchase The Healer's Apprentice:
The Healer's Apprentice


But not only are my earlier books a special price, but the new book, The Captive Maiden, is only $5.19 for the Kindle, and only $5.99 for the paperback! That is a great pre-order promotion, and I'm not sure how much longer it will last.


Thanks for letting me share these promotions with you! And a few reviews are trickling in already for The Captive Maiden, from reviewers who got early advance copies. Blooming with Books said:
"Based upon Cinderella The Captive Maiden will capture your imagination as it brings faith and fiction together in a believable heartfelt story.  You will want to re-read this story again and again (I know because I'm re-reading it again) and it will join the favorites on your shelf."
You can read the entire review here.

Thursday, July 18, 2013

The "Big Reveal" of the cover of my new Cinderella fairy tale retelling!

Here it is! The cover of The Captive Maiden, a.k.a. my newest fairy tale retelling, a.k.a. my Cinderella story, a.k.a. Valten's story.

 I especially love the dress, which so perfectly matches the ball dress Gisela borrows from her neighbor Ava. And Gisela, a.k.a. my Cinderella, looks frightened but brave, which is good. :-)

Another stunning cover, I thought. I am very pleased with it.

The book releases in October, and if you really want to bless an author--in this case, me--please pre-order it! If you usually shop at a book store, please go there and pre-order it. If you usually buy your books from Amazon, please pre-order it here. If you usually get your books from CBD, order it here. And if you usually get your books from library, go to your local library and submit a request for them to pre-order it! Pre-orders can really make a difference. So thank you very much for your pre-orders! 

Thursday, January 17, 2013

The Next Big Thing Blog Hop!


Hi, everybody! Well, I've been tagged more than once to do this Next Big Thing Blog Hop, but for one reason or another, I couldn't do it--until now. I finally was able to say yes to Sarah Penner, so go check out Sarah's "Next Big Thing" blog post!

So, The Next Big Thing is supposed to be about what book I have coming up next. Well, my next book is actually a bit of a sequel to the one that just came out this month, The Fairest Beauty.

If you have read The Fairest Beauty, which you can purchase now wherever books are sold, 

you may be wondering about Valten, Gabe's brother. The story didn't end well for him, but his story isn't over. He gets his own heroic tale told in my next book The Captive Maiden, which is a Cinderella story in which he finds his own fairest beauty. ;-) So now I'm going to tell you a bit about that book, which is set to release in October.

1: What is the working title of your book?

The Captive Maiden

2: Where did the idea come from for the book?

The idea came from the Cinderella story, from Valten, who is a character in The Fairest Beauty and gets to be the hero in The Captive Maiden, and I threw in some stuff inspired by the great novel, Ivanhoe by Sir Walter Scott.

3: What genre does your book come under?

It is a Young Adult, Inspirational, Medieval, fairy tale retelling romance. Is that enough genres?

4: Which actors would you choose to play your characters in a movie rendition?

If I had to choose actors who would play Valten and Gisela in a movie rendition, a good actor to play Valten might be Jensen Ackles, who has the perfect look but ought to be a little brawnier, as Valten is quite muscular, being a trained knight.


And here's another picture of the "Supernatural" star.

Put him in Medieval clothes and a sword in his hand and you have Valten, the hero of my next book.

As for Gisela, the heroine, the perfect actress to play her would have to be blond and beautiful, but also tough and feisty. Maybe Emelie de Ravin with blond hair:


5: What is the one-sentence synopsis of your book?

The Captive Maiden is a fairy tale retelling of Cinderella, set in the Medieval town of Hagenheim and continues the story of Rose and Wilhelm's son, Valten, and a beautiful named Gisela, who gets kidnapped by Valten's rival.

6: Is your book self-published, published by an independent publisher, or represented by an agency?

The Captive Maiden is being published by Zondervan in October, 2013

7: How long did it take you to write the first draft of your manuscript?

The rough draft took me about four months to write.

8: What other books would you compare this story to within your genre?

I would compare this book to my other fairy tale retellings, and also to other Inspirational historical romance stories with lots of action and romance.

9: Who or what inspired you to write this book?

Valten's character inspired me to write this story. I'd been wanting to write a Cinderella story, but I wasn't sure how to do it in an original way, and then Valten turned out to be the perfect hero for a Cinderella story. He was my inspiration!

10: What else about your book might pique the reader’s interest?

One of my inspirations for this book, besides Valten's character and the story of Cinderella, was the book, Ivanhoe, by Sir Walter Scott. I love that story, and since my hero is a knight who likes to fight in tournaments, I was inspired by the tournaments that Ivanhoe engages in, as well as the tradition of knights wearing the scarf of the lady he loves into battle. Such a fun, romantic concept! And I think Valten makes good use of it in my story. :-)


So, if you have read The Fairest Beauty and wondered, "What about Valten?" I hope this answers that, at least until October when you can read the entire story!

And now I want to encourage you to go to my friends' blogs, who have also agreed to participate in this blog hop!

1. Kathleen Maher www.kathleenlmaher.blogspot.com

2. Debra Collins http://www.debracollins.blogspot.com/

3. Bridgett Henson http://www.bridgetthenson.com/

4. Sarah Holman http://destinyofone.blogspot.com/

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

The Fairest Beauty on Kindle!

After all the delays, The Fairest Beauty is finally available on Kindle! And it will be out everywhere else in 7 days, on Jan. 22nd.

I'm so glad it's finally available somewhere! :-) Click Here for the link to get it on Kindle.




Sunday, January 06, 2013

The Fairest Beauty--A Little Delay in the Release

Hey, guys. I am so sorry, but it looks like there's another delay in the release of my new book. I have no idea why. But hopefully it won't be long before we'll ALL have copies!!! I really appreciate so much the people who have pre-ordered it. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

And while we wait to get them, here's another look at the trailer, just in case you might have forgotten what the story is about. :-)


Friday, December 14, 2012

Easy Way to Give and Get!


Most of you may know that I spent some time in Ukraine--11 months, to be exact. I fell in love with the people, and I fell in love with some precious orphans we used to go visit. That's why this project Jill Williamson is doing is very special to me. She's trying to help a couple raise enough money to adopt an orphan from Eastern  Europe. So, without further ado, I give you the amazing, two-time Christy-Award winning author, Jill Williamson!

Jill Williamson is a chocolate loving, daydreaming, creator of kingdoms. She writes weird books for teens. She’s a Jesus follower, a Whovian, and a recovering fashion design assistant, who was raised in Alaska. She now lives in Eastern Oregon with her family and a whole lot of deer (and cows).

In case you haven’t noticed, it’s almost Christmas! I love Christmas. I wanted a Christmas wedding. I wanted to carry a bouquet of poinsettias, I wanted a Christmas tree where people could put the wedding gifts, I wanted hooded cloaks for me and my bridesmaids to wear, and I wanted to leave the reception in a one horse open sleigh.
Alas, I got married in June. :-( But if I could travel back in time, I’d tell myself to do it anyway. Nothing better than Christmas in June, right?
Christmas makes me think of giving. I’m a writer. And writers have a unique opportunity in the giving department. Whenever a person opens one of our books, it’s like we’ve been invited into their home to speak to them. It’s precious. And humbling. Like Spiderman learns: “With great power comes great responsibility.” Writers are charged with doing our jobs well, and respecting the power we are given. And it’s a gift that publishers and readers give to us too. I’m thankful for that.
I recently learned that some dear friends of mine were trying to adopt a girl from Eastern Europe. Adoption is expensive, and until they raise over $40,000, little Sydney can’t come home. Just learning about their desire to adopt and the fact that they’ve been unable to have children of their own put tears in my eyes. I wanted to help. But I don’t have much extra money right now. Plus it’s Christmastime, and we wrecked our van hitting a cow. (We live in free range territory.) So what could I possibly give?
Sydneysoon to beHaydon
Well, whoever said the only way to give was by donation?
So, I self-published an enovella, which means short ebook. It’s book length is 120 pages. Of course, Amazon, Barnes and Noble, and Kobo will keep their cut, but 100% of my proceeds will go toward Sydney’s adoption!
Many things had to fall into place for this to happen, and many have given to Sydney’s cause already. Jeff Gerke gave me permission to do this project when Marcher Lord Press holds the rights to my storyworld. In doing so, he also gave up his right to make money off the story. Kirk DouPonce donated a cover, and teens from his church volunteered to model. Rebecca LuElla Miller, the freelance editor I hired, gave me a big discount on editing. As did Kerry Nietz on ebook design. My agent, Amanda Luedeke, waived her right to her 15%. And Chris Kolmorgen had an hour-long, (midnight for me, 2:00 a.m. for him) brainstorming session with me, helping with some last-minute content editing.
The result is Chokepoint: Mini-Mission 1.5. This project is part of The Mission League series with Marcher Lord Press. It takes place after book one and before book two, but reads good on its own too. Here’s a little bit about the project:

Ever since I returned from Moscow, life is a full court press. Mission League field agents are everywhere. All the time. Watching. Waiting for me to fulfill a sixty-year-old prophecy. When some baddies try to guy-nap me, the field agents threaten to move me and Grandma Alice to some random hick town, to give us new fake identities until the prophecy is fulfilled.

Not going to happen.

I’ve got one chance to stay in Pilot Point. I have to prove to the agents that I can stay safe. Have to make this work. For basketball. For Kip. For Beth.

So, bring it, baddies. It’s game on.


100% OF THE PROCEEDS FROM THIS ENOVELLA GO TOWARD THE ADOPTION OF LITTLE SYNDEY FROM EASTERN EUROPE. PLEASE, HELP BRING SYDNEY HOME.


 
Chokepoint is $2.99 and is available on Kindle, Nook, or Kobo. All the proceeds go to Sydney’s adoption.
 
Click here to view Chokepoint: Mini-Mission 1.5 on Amazon Kindle
Click here to view Chokepoint: Mini-Mission 1.5 on B&N Nook
Click here to view Chokepoint: Mini-Mission 1.5 on Kobo
 
And click here to visit Kevin and Wendy’s blog Haydon Family Growing’s On. to learn more about their adoption adventure.

How about you? Do you do something to give to a cause each year? What are some other ways you give? Please share in the comments.

Monday, December 10, 2012

Excerpt from Talking to the Dead by Bonnie Grove

I wanted to share with you this new book by Bonnie Grove, Talking to the Dead. My friend read the book and loved it so much, she decided to create a blog tour for it! I figured if she liked it THAT much, it must be good! So I agreed to help get the word out about this book!


First, here's a bit about Bonnie:


Bonnie Grove started writing when, as a teenager, her parents bought a typewriter (yes, during the age of dinosaurs). She clacked out a terrible romance novel filled with typos and bad grammar that her mom loved, and she's been turning out improving prose ever since.
Her non-fiction, Your Best You: Discovering and Developing the Strengths God Gave You, came out of her experience working with families in crisis. She believes people have the knowledge and ability to make changes in their life without being told what to do or how to do it. And, oddly enough, has managed to write a book that helps people do just that.
Her novel, Talking to the Dead, came out of that crazy place inside her head that has more questions then answers. Questions about grief, love, sex, God, therapy, and how laughter can make everything seem okay--even if just for a moment or two. It has won a few awards, and has been internationally published in languages she doesn't speak.
Bonnie has completed several novels since Talking to the Dead, and is currently working her butt off to ensure they see they make their way into your hands.
Bonnie is married to a cute guy named Steve, they have two children, and they make their home in Saskatchewan.


Now here is the excerpt from Talking to the Dead.

Chapter 1

Kevin was dead and the people in my house wouldn’t go home. They mingled after the funeral, eating sandwiches, drinking tea, and speaking in muffled tones. I didn’t feel grateful for their presence. I felt exactly nothing.

Funerals exist so we can close doors we’d rather leave open. But where did we get the idea that the best approach to facing death is to eat Bundt cake? I refused to pick at dainties and sip hot drinks. Instead, I wandered into the back
yard.

I knew if I turned my head I’d see my mother’s back as she guarded the patio doors. Mom would let no one pass. As a recent widow herself, she knew my need to stare into my loss alone.

I sat on the porch swing and closed my eyes, letting the June sun warm my bare arms. Instead of closing the door on my pain, I wanted it to swing from its hinges so the searing winds of grief could scorch my face and body. Maybe I hoped to die from exposure.

Kevin had been dead three hours before I had arrived at the hospital. A long time for my husband to be dead without me knowing. He was so altered, so permanently changed without my being aware.

I had stood in the emergency room, surrounded by faded blue cotton curtains, looking at the naked remains of my husband while nurses talked in hushed tones around me. A sheet covered Kevin from his hips to his knees. Tubes, which had either carried something into or away from his body, hung disconnected and useless from his arms. The twisted remains of what I assumed to be some sort of breathing mask lay on the floor. “What happened?” I said in a whisper so faint I knew no one could hear. Maybe I never said it at all. A short doctor with a pronounced lisp and quiet manner told me Kevin’s heart killed him. He used difficult phrases; medical terms I didn’t know, couldn’t understand. He called it an episode and said it was massive. When he said the word massive, spit flew from his mouth, landing on my jacket’s lapel. We had both stared at it.

When my mother and sister, Heather, arrived at the hospital, they gazed speechlessly at Kevin for a time, and then took me home. Heather had whispered with the doctor, their heads close together, before taking a firm hold on my arm and walking me out to her car. We drove in silence to my house. The three of us sat around my kitchen table looking at each other.

Several times my mother opened her mouth to speak, but nothing came out. Our words had turned to cotton, thick and dry. We couldn’t work them out of our throats. I had no words for my abandonment. Like everything I knew to be true had slipped out the back door when I wasn’t looking.

“What happened?” I said again. This time I knew I had said it out loud. My voice echoed back to me off the kitchen table.
“Remember how John Ritter died? His heart, remember?” This from Heather, my younger, smarter sister. Kevin had died a celebrity’s death.

From the moment I had received the call from the hospital until now, I had allowed other people to make all of my bereavement decisions. My mother and mother-in-law chose the casket and placed the obituary in the paper. Kevin’s boss at the bank, Donna Walsh, arranged for the funeral parlor and even called the pastor from the church that Kevin had attended until he was sixteen to come and speak. Heather silently held my hand through it all. I didn’t feel grateful for their help.

I sat on the porch swing, and my right foot rocked on the grass, pushing and pulling the swing. My head hurt. I tipped it back and rested it on the cold, inflexible metal that made up the frame for the swing. It dug into my skull. I invited the pain. I sat with it; supped with it.

I opened my eyes and looked up into the early June sky. The clouds were an unmade bed. Layers of white moved rumpled and languid past the azure heavens. Their shapes morphed and faded before my eyes. A Pegasus with the face of a dog; a veiled woman fleeing; a villain; an elf. The shapes were strange and unreliable, like dreams. A monster, a baby—I wanted to reach up to touch its soft, wrinkled face. I was too tired. Everything was gone, lost, emptied out.

I had arrived home from the hospital empty handed. No Kevin. No car—we left it in the hospital parking lot for my sister to pick up later. “No condition to drive,” my mother had said. She meant me.

Empty handed. The thought, incomplete and vague, crept closer to consciousness. There should have been something. I should have brought his things home with me. Where were his clothes? His wallet? Watch? Somehow, they’d fled the scene.

“How far could they have gotten?” I said to myself. Without realizing it, I had stood and walked to the patio doors. “Mom?” I said as I walked into the house.

She turned quickly, but said nothing. My mother didn’t just understand what was happening to me. She knew. She knew it like the ticking of a clock, the wind through the windows, like everything a person gets used to in life. It had only been eight months since Dad died. She knew there was little to be said. Little that should be said. Once, after Dad’s funeral, she looked at Heather and me and said, “Don’t talk. Everyone has said enough words to last for eternity.”
I noticed how tall and straight she stood in her black dress and sensible shoes. How long must the dead be buried before you can stand straight again? “What happened to Kevin’s stuff?” Mom glanced around as if checking to see if a guest had made off with the silverware.

I swallowed hard and clarified. “At the hospital. He was naked.” A picture of him lying motionless, breathless on the white sheets filled my mind. “They never gave me his things. His, whatever, belongings. Effects.”

“I don’t know, Kate,” she said. Like it didn’t matter. Like I should stop thinking about it. I moved past her, careful not to touch her, and went in search of my sister.

Heather sat on my secondhand couch in my living room, a two seater with the pattern of autumn leaves. She held an empty cup and a napkin; dark crumbs tumbling off onto the carpet. Her long brown hair, usually left down, was pulled up into a bun. She looked pretty and sad. She saw me coming, her brown eyes widening in recognition. Recognition that she should do something. Meet my needs, help me, make time stand still. She quickly ended the conversation she was having with Kevin’s boss, and met me in the middle of the living room.

“Hey,” she said, touching my arm. I took a small step back, avoiding her warm fingers.

“Where would his stuff go?” I blurted out. Heather’s eyebrows snapped together in confusion. “Kevin’s things,” I said. “They never gave me his things. I want to go and get them. Will you come?”
Heather stood very still for a moment, straight backed like she was made of wood, then relaxed. “You mean at the hospital. Right, Kate? Kevin’s things at the hospital?” Tears welled in my eyes. “There was nothing. You were there. When we left, they never gave me anything of his.” I realized I was trembling.

Heather bit her lower lip, and looked into my eyes. “Let me do that for you. I’ll call the hospital—” I stood on my tiptoes and opened my mouth. “I’ll go,” she corrected before I could say anything. “I’ll go and ask around. I’ll get his stuff and bring it here.” “I need his things.”
Heather cupped my elbow with her hand. “You need to lie down. Let me get you upstairs, and as soon as you’re settled, I’ll go to the hospital and find out what happened to Kevin’s clothes, okay?”
Fatigue filled the small spaces between my bones. “Okay.” She led me upstairs. I crawled under the covers as Heather closed the door, blocking the sounds.

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